What is the poet s reaction after his sister s death In Learnings Grief poet Kaiser Haq -Present takes us through personal moments of loss In the process he explores how grief evolves from childhood confusion to mature acceptance Intense Grief After his sister s death the poet experiences deep sadness and emotional numbness When the poet was a child he lost his grandmother He felt confused as a child Unlike his reaction to his grandmother's death the loss of his sister leaves him feeling isolated and profoundly affected Daily life feels empty and meaningless to him The poet describes how he loses all interest in life He says I thought I ll never laugh or smile I ll never Feel joy again During this time the poet withdraws from friends His reaction is similar to that of a penitent monk as he avoids play and happiness He is consumed